A girl shared how she told her mother that she hated her the day before her mother passed away, and now she feels disgusted with herself.
Here is the story
i lost almost a year of my life because my mom had become extremely ill with a liver disease (something like cirrhosis of the liver) and i had to be her carer because she had nobody else. it was fatal, as a lot of untreated liver diseases can be.
i haven’t told anyone this, and i promised myself it would be one of those “take it to the grave” secrets, but i need to tell this to someone before the guilt kills me or something.
the day before she died, we had a huge argument before i went to school. we argued a lot, because when you become so sick with a terminal illness that you can hardly move and you refuse to go to hospital, you get frustrated really easily.
i yelled at her, saying that i hate her and i would do anything to not live with her anymore.
i was sick of caring for her while she refused to get help, which is fair enough, i’m 15 and i had to do literally everything for her.
a day after that argument, i went to school, did the full 6 hours, and when i came home my grandma told me she was dead. i still feel disgusting for it 4 months later, and i haven’t told anyone this until now.
Netizens’ comments
- You were a child, children say dumb things but she’d know you didn’t mean it. You’re her child and it was a very high stress, emotional situation. She loved you and knew you loved her too. It was just a fight.
- Forgive yourself you are a kid, then learn from it. Words you say matter. People that matter to us are few and far between. Spare your temper as best you can when dealing with your loved ones. When you are not mad anymore you’ll want them around, as you well know. You are not the first or last to make this mistake.