I have been married for twelve years and no one could ever love me.
My husband admitted that he has never been attracted to me. He married me because I appeared “good enough” to keep his family off his back. Except they don’t like me either.
I’m not pretty enough. I’m not smart enough. My husband can’t think of a single reason why anyone would like me, and honestly neither can I.
I asked him loads of times if he was sure about this, about me, before we moved in together. Before we got married. Before we started trying for a baby.
He said he was sure. He hid it so well. I was delusional to think I was good enough for him to ever feel that way about me.
It’s not his fault I was too narcissistic and full of myself to accept the reality that I’m so obviously worthless and unloveable and ugly.
People used to like me. People used to be attracted to me. I know I haven’t changed that much. Were they all just faking? They must have been.
It was probably hilarious to them when I believed that I was likeable. What a delusional piece of shit I have been.
Who do I think I am? Someone loveable? Someone beautiful?
I’m not.
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I’m sorry you experience this, OP. You deserve someone who love you for who you are.
Is it possible for you to leave the relationship?