I have a confession. I am a big man with a small manhood. It might sound stupid, but this is something that makes me embarrassed and unconfident.
To be specific, I am 1.86m tall. People who have seen me might get the impression that down there is big, hard and rock solid. Truth is, it is barely 8cm when fully erect. When it is flacid, it can’t even be seen. This is why I shave, so that it can at least be seen. This is real cringe. When I last celebrated my birthday, I wished for my p*nis to grow bigger.
Both my 2 ex-girlfriends have showed astonishment at its size. I have no idea. I don’t compare sizes with other people, or even talk about it. But they mentioned that I am way below the average size, and that it was much smaller than they have expected. I felt so lousy about myself. Now that I think about it, how would they know what is average? Have they seen enough penises to make a fair judgement?
There was an incident in which my last girlfriend asked “Is it in?” Things were actually going well, but once I heard that, I became anxious and my whole body just shut down. I could not even perform the deed, and that was the last time I ever got intimate with someone. She broke up with me soon after.
That was 2 years ago. I now have a new gf, the 3rd one. We haven’t slept together yet, I would always give the excuse to wait until we graduate, so that it can be extra special. I told her that this is the responsible thing to do. Of course, I did not mean it. Truth is, I am very afraid that the same thing might happen again. Lucky for me, she did not take it negatively but instead expressed that it was sweet of me to think of it this way. Because of this, she feels doubly assured that I love her for who she is, rather than just wanting her physically. Well, she has no clue of what really is going on.
Next academic year will be our final one, and I only have a short time to get my shit together. I am now saving up money to possibly go for treatments to increase its size. But I am worried for my finances too. Such procedures will definitely cost a lot. And business school fresh grads usually don’t get very high starting pay. I have very little knowledge in this area, and I don’t know how much exactly it will cost and how long it will take. Can someone give advice on this, either in a reply or in a separate whisper?
And guys, if you don’t sharing in the comments, can I know 3 things?
1) What is the length of your thing when it is at rest?
2) What is the length when it is at full stretch?
3) How tall are you?