I hate that I am annoyed with happy couples.
In fact I strongly dislike them. I know its because of jealousy and because it’s something I envy but it doesn’t stop me from feeling this way.
This evening I was at a dinner with multiple couples for a friends birthday. The only other people not married were me and my gay friend.
Long story short, there was lots of complimenting couples and romantic stories, and me sitting there thinking in my head…I wish I was loved like that or that someone thought I was special or that they knew I was the one for.
Instead I threw I pity party for myself, in my head, about how I’m a divorced failure and how no one will ever truly love me for me.
I hate myself for feeling this way along with hating myself in general.
Netizen’s comments
At least you have a friend who invited you to their birthday party <3 A lot of people don’t even have that.