I don’t want kids, and neither does he. We’ve made that clear in our relationship. It’s a really weird concept, I don’t want kids, but the idea of getting knocked up is such a huge turn on for me.
It’s the number one thing that turns me on. I guess I like the idea of my boyfriend finishing inside me and me permanently getting marked, the power dynamic that comes with it. And pregnancy is the most intense version of that.
I’m so scared to tell my boyfriend about my secret because I’m afraid he’ll think this is my way of telling him I want kids. Or maybe he’ll get totally weirded out of me and think I’m some creep.
I was thinking of telling him after marriage so when I do confess, he won’t leave me because he’s already devoted to me.
But, thinking about it, it’s kinda manipulative. Plus, it’s the only thing that turns me on. I really want to roleplay “making a baby” with him because I know it would greatly improve our life in bed.
I’m not sure on his stance on the whole breeding thing. We have also talked about all my turn ons (besides this one) and he says he’s willing to try anything at least once.
Plus, he said he’ll never leave me. But I feel this will definitely weird him out. I don’t know. I’m just… so scared.
Basically what I’m asking is should I bring this up sometime? Maybe keep to myself? I want to explain to him fully so he understands where I’m coming from.
I don’t want him thinking I want children, or that I’m some creep. But I just don’t know how to word it or what to do in this situation. People of the internet, please help!