I just graduated a year ago but I honestly feel like an old person. Ever since I started working full time, I gradually stopped feeling any joy in life.
The daily repeated routine of waking up, going to work, coming home to sleep feels like a chore. In fact, I wake up everyday feeling exhausted regardless of how late or early I slept the previous night.
At first, I used to look forward to the weekends as I can spend time with my friends and loved ones. Now, even this feel like a weekly burden. I feel tired being around people.
And so I decided that perhaps I just needed some “me” time and rest during the weekends. I stopped making plans to go out with others. Instead, I started to sleep till noon and read books or play games the rest of the day. Initially this arrangement felt like a good change but I started feeling bored after a while.
Now I honestly feel happiest and most at peace when I’m asleep. Sometimes I really wish I can just bury myself under a warm and fluffy blanket, fall into deep sleep and never wake up again.
And no, don’t worry I have no thoughts of killing myself. I’m terrified of heights and knives plus I still want to be a filial child and support my parents till old. I just wanted to rant and organise my thoughts a little. Thanks for hearing me out.
Netizens’ comments
- Welcome to adulthood and reality. This seems to be a norm struggle among the younger generation these days.
- The reason why I keep myself in my room after work and during weekends to sleep for the whole day. I feel you bruhÂ
- I get what you mean and would like you to know that you are not alone. thank you for taking the time to share this with us, we appreciate you for who you are and how you try your best to be a filial child to your parents is truly admirable… sleep is often an escape ..
it’s hard to enjoy it without indulging in it when you’re lost in life and just really bored with the mundane routine of our lives … but I need you to know that good things will take awhile to happen to good people and as twisted as it may sound, your rainbow will appear soon.
Have faith and keep up with that fighting spirit .. you’re gonna be so ok and we’re all rooting for you and have faith in you!Â