A biggest regret in my whole life.
My girlfriend is the love of my life. At first I believe I fall in love with her simply because we see each other daily at work, and because I enjoy talking with her I confess to her after some months knowing each other.
Luckily she feel the same way towards me and we started dating. I admit it was rough initially, while she is kinda temperamental and I’m the kind of guy who usually cries in front of her in order to express my emotion. I supress my anger and disappointment in silent so after a while it burst into tears.
To be honest I feel like myself is a wimp of a man who cries alone or in front of her whenever I’ve had a big trouble either at work or just within my overthinking self. And I am actually so ashamed by that I even think “No way she’s gonna hold on with me after knowing I’m like this.”
But couple of months after we started dating, it all just going even better. She never leave me for a second, she even said it’s okay for me to cry in front of her if it’s make me feel better, it’s fine for a man to cry she said.
A years pass by since then and she never stop caring about me. But my foolish youngself is getting kinda bored with our relationship and thinking “She’s not the only girl in this world, surely I can find a better girl than her who can make me grow more better day by day”. And that’s when I make my biggest mistake in my whole life.
I break up with her even though she doesn’t wanna that, I make up a fake reason for the break up thinking that my love life gonna be just fine in the future.
And then years later I started dating another girl and then break up after just a couple of months later. The year after I am dating yet another girl and we break up again after just a couple of months together.
Then I realized that letting go of her just because I’m bored was the biggest mistake that I’ve ever done, because now I realize there is not gonna be another girl as beautiful and acceptance as her.
That happen 7 years ago, I got hold with her recently and knowing that she’s been happily married and having a child recently. I’m so happy for her too, but for me, I’ve been avoiding any relationship just because I think it’ll just not gonna end well anyway for me.
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