We have been together for 4 months and my boyfriend (25M) has never made any indication that he isn’t attracted to me (24F) but we are sort of opposite. He is in pretty good shape and works out every day. Meanwhile, I have a chronic health condition that causes exercise intolerance. I have always been on the bigger side but in the last 6 months have gained around 15kg which officially put me from the upper end of the “healthy” BMI spectrum to “overweight.”
I work full time in an industry that is very seasonal and gets slower during the winter months. As such, I’ve recently had a lot of downtime while working from home. I recently downloaded an exercise app that helps with low-impact 5-10 minute workouts I can do in my free time. When I mentioned this to him, he seemed really excited and started suggesting more things I can do, talking about physical activities we can do together on dates, etc. He then started talking about how hot I was going to start looking and what a great looking couple we would be.
Granted, I was hoping that doing small exercises throughout the day might help me lose some of this extra weight, but the main reason is that a family member with unhealthy habits is suffering from Long COVID. Seeing how much more transmissible it seems to be, I figure that I’ll end up getting COVID at some point and want to reduce the chance of complications.
Anyway, it’s been over a week now and we haven’t been intimate. I just can’t help but feeling like he doesn’t find me attractive and wishes I looked more like his exes (all petite athletic blonde girls). I know that I’m generally an insecure over-thinker, but am I overreacting? We’ve never argued before and I don’t want to start a fight over what was intended to be supportive.