Hello, I’ve been dating my partner for 6 years and we haven’t had any intimacy after a year. So it’s almost 5 years now that we don’t touch each other anymore. Recently I found out she cheated on me 1 year ago with a ONS which is very ridiculous as she mention she’s not a high S drive person. That’s why we haven’t had any S for so long. I confronted her regarding it and she says she’s very sorry. She just wanted to confirm that she got no interest in S anymore. After all these, my trust in her is lost. I’ve been asking her whereabouts everyday and who is she with etc. I am slowly losing myself, thinking that I am not attractive to her anymore.. I cried myself to sleep every single day.
She told me she wants to go to the doctor for her S-ual thingy so that she can be fair to me and give me what I wanted/needed. But up until now, she keep say shes busy and don’t have the time to go to the doctor. After that, she have not been taking my feelings seriously. Everytime when I mention about the ONS thing which are affecting me, she find it no wrong. She’s no longer guilty for doing that to me. She treat it like nothing happen.
After a few months past, she found a new job and have been really busy. She don’t have the time to even reply my message anymore. She’s always busy. I have to wait hours and hours for her reply. She only call me when she needed help from me but my messages to her was ignored after that.
Even when she reach home, she claims she’s still busy with work… yet she can post insta stories and reply other people. so I am slowly fading away. I am not waiting for her replies anymore. I don’t even wanna bother anymore. I am so tired of this shit relationship. So so tired.
Can you guys advice what to do? Or do you think she’s not interested in me anymore? But why she don’t want to just break up with me… everytime when I did that, she begs me to stay.
I am a lesbian and she’s a butch by the way…