I need to end my marriage.
We more or less sometimes enjoy each other’s company. Sometimes, because the other times I am getting yelled at for ridiculous things.
It’s been about 10 yrs or so since we have been intimate with each other. We sleep in different bedrooms, rarely kiss, and rarely have any physical contact.
I finally went to therapy this year, I know I should leave this relationship, but I stay for my daughter. My daughter is the only reason I am still around, she is my world.
She is my wild child, my princess, not only am I her Dad, but also a good friend to her. We have a lot in common, she shares quite a bit with me, talks to me, knows I don’t judge, always gets the benefit of doubt, and that I will listen.
I treat her like I would want to be treated at her age. My wife gets mad that I have a better relationship with her than she does and expects me to yell at her when my wife antagonizes her.
My wife expects me to defend her. She is all about control, constantly, and if she doesn’t get her way she gets angry, starts yelling, screaming until either she get what she wants or shuts herself in her room or straight up and leaves.
I am dependent on her for a lot of things because I am disabled.
I am thinking of finally leaving, I hope I can go through it. I know I should have left sooner, but I couldn’t, would have had no chance to get custody of my daughter.
I also didn’t want to tear my family apart, I never thought I would have one, that I wasn’t deserving of one, then I got one, and I really tried to work things out, but she was against marriage counseling, therapy, or anything that help.
She expected me to change, but not herself. Nothing is her fault, all mine. I hope I can go through with leaving, I need the strength to do it.