About to get married but don’t want to let go of my fwb
I have a f-buddy whom I meet occasionally to meet physical needs. We literally just do nothing except to f the shit out of each other. No emotions, hardly any conversation.
It’s been going on for years, and I’ve had serious committed relationships at the same time (of course I kept it a secret). I feel it’s like just to get some release, since your partner isn’t available for that all the time.
She is not marriage material and she doesn’t like to be tied down, but is perfectly ok with using me to satisfy herself as well.
But things have gotten a little complicated recently. I’m about to marry the most beautiful woman in the world. My fwb knows about this and I could sense her jealousy every time we sleep together.
The way she kisses becomes more and more passionate and “emotional”, instead of the usual wild but emotionless f.
It’s as if she is trying to communicate that she loves me. Even though we agreed to have this arrangement after I get married, it still seems like she is somewhat different and affected. I don’t wanna raise the topic with her, because it might open a can of worms and affect our NSA relationship.
I also feel a little guilty about keeping this whole fwb thing from my wife to be. Think she will be devasted if she finds out.
But I don’t want to tell her now out of fear that she might call off the wedding. And I guess this will remain a secret for life, or for as long as I can keep it.
I know this sounds selfish, but my f buddy is the kind who really fulfils every fantasy I have. Making love with my fiancé isn’t quite the same… she is a wonderful person and I love her for who she is, but she doesn’t have as hot a body and has much lower libido than my f buddy.
What should I do?