OK. I am a mother of 2 and was seeing someone for a couple months, for the first time since the breakup years ago.
We were getting to know each other and then he disappeared for a couple of months “to. focus on his health.” Weird, but ok. We started talking again.
We met up one night and the condom broke and he started acting extremely weird. He couldn’t go to sleep and kept talking about STD testing and that he’d caught STD’s before. His heart was pounding, I could feel it. He said, ‘You could get HIV…’
I was kind of freaked out by it but I went home and didn’t think about it. But I woke up in the middle of the night with the sentence burned in my brain. ‘You could get HIV…’ I immediately knew what he was telling me.
I started researching at 3am and found out there is something like a morning-after pill to prevent HIV infection. That morning I got a babysitter and went to the clinic. They interviewed me and said because he didn’t outright tell me he had HIV and was unmedicated, they were choosing not to start me on the medication. I said I was extremely scared, and they said it was very unlikely I would get infected.
Then he started constantly texting me. Sending me negative STD results from 2 years ago with the message “I’m clean, so if you have anything, you gave it to ME…”
I just blocked him. I will test asap and that’s all I need to focus on.
It’s been three weeks and for the past few days I have been nauseous, achy, had a bad sore throat, and all my glands have come up. I can’t swallow anything. I was in the hospital last week for a random infection that didn’t respond to antibiotics.
I can’t tell anyone. I have to take care of my kids like nothing is wrong. I am TERRIFIED. I still have two weeks to test (they said I had to wait 5 weeks for accuracy).
I can’t believe this is happening. This isn’t my life. I can’t sleep. I’m so scared.