I am a SAHM with 2 kids and a loving husband.
Recently I’ve found out my first love is now married. My heart broke and to the extend that I will cry and couldn’t sleep. All the good old memories came back, having sushi and buffet with him, celebrating my 21st birthday and exploring around with his friends
It has been 10 years, I didnt not expect myself to react this for a guy that I was with for only 1 year.
I was the one who initiated the break up due to some bad comments by him which I couldn’t remember now. I shredded tons of weight (it was the first time that I weight <40kg). I moved on and dating other guys through the years.
While my first love and I kept in touch through friendly messages once in a blue moon (i.e. once a year or longer). Each time after my break out he would be sending friendly texts too. My heart skipped but somehow I have no courage to tell him. Rather I had a lot of excuses – I was afraid to get hurt again, who knows if he was the same old guy I know, maybe he is dating other girls and maybe I’ve changed so much that we can never be the same.
Fast forward, I got married and he unfriended me on Facebook. OK I was sad for a while, like why can’t we be friends. To think about it now it must have been hard for him to learn about my marriage too.
All were good until few days back when I learnt about his marriage. I am bitter and sad. Asking myself why didn’t we ended up together. I looked through all my past photos including those with my other dates. I didn’t have such intense feelings except for those with my first love.
Maybe I will never get over this lost love. For consolation, maybe in the multiverse T.YS and I are happily married with kids.