I (19F) live with my parents and brother (11) and we are relatively poor. We survive off dad’s paycheck because he’s the only one working.
It’s a small paycheck tbh and not enough for us monthly so sometimes my uncle help us out. A few days ago my mother gave me 30 dollars for the bus and school lunch plus i had brought her some painkillers and my dad cigarettes. The change was 1 dollar in total.
After classes, my uncle invited me over to give me money and told me it was solely for me because my father started working again (had something like a stroke) and my family was equipped enough for some time. I got 30 dollars and went home to my mother demanding i give her the 10 dollars back.
I did and everything was fine.
The next morning I was rushing to school but when I opened my wallet to check everything, the remaining money werent there. I found them in my mother’s wallet and was pissed. She yelled at me to leave the money but I just stormed out. When I came back that evening she said I was all things bad for taking the money and that she wanted to buy deodorant and that without it we can stink now. I was confused as to why she didnt take the 10 bucks because that’s enough but needed all 30 that were mine.
My mother always complains how she doesnt have a job but never wants to look for one. In the holidays I asked her why she doesnt work but she replied with ‘Find me a job and I’ll work’. Mind you, I’m 19.
I was so guilty the next few days. I always leave money for my family when I have the chance because I know it’s more important to buy food than me buying bus tickets or whatever. But that day I was pissed at the way she demanded it whilst she already had money to herself. I’m still feeling guilty and can’t help but to think about it.