Every night, I drive home with a heavy heart. I’m struggling to make ends meet and the stress is weighing on me. I can’t let my family know how I’m feeling, so I put on a brave face when I get home.
Stop and cry in car a few blocks away from home, but still need to put on a brave front when reach home
Every night I stop my car a few blocks from my home and just sit there. I don’t know if it’s the fear of going home or the fear of facing my financial troubles. I just know that I need this time to clear my head and try to come up with a plan.
Sometimes I’ll just sit in my car and cry. I know that I don’t have the money to pay my bills and I’m scared of what will happen if I can’t find a way to make ends meet. But I can’t let my family know how I’m feeling. I have to keep a brave face and pretend like everything is alright.
So I sit there in my car, trying to compose myself and wipe away the tears. I take a few deep breaths and remind myself that I can do this. I will find a way to make it through this.
When I get home, I put on a smile and greet my family. I pretend that everything is fine and that I don’t have a care in the world. I laugh and joke around and try to show them that I’m okay.
But inside, I’m still scared and stressed.
I go through this every night. It’s exhausting but I know I have to do it. I can’t let my family know my real struggles. I have to be strong and pretend like everything is alright.
So I keep up with this false pretense, hoping that one day I will find a way to make things better.