Let me explain why I hate it when people say things like, “Your grades don’t define you” or “CAP is just a number on a paper”
I got a cap of 3.3 (S/U won’t improve it much). I am a freshman.
My parents kicked me out of the house. I have to live off my NS savings. I am living in a hostel for 15 dollars a night until I can secure a room in JB for less than 200 SGD a month. From next sem, I will have to cross the border daily and travel all the way to NUS. I barely have any NUSÂ friends to crash in their hall/RC.
By this sem, I will be totally broke because I will have to pay for my own tuition fees, food, housing, transport. I will have to apply for some financial aid and work a few part time jobs to make it through the following 7 sems. I will have to give up all expensive desires and cut off any social life. I hate the course I am doing (Engineering). I thought I would like it but I don’t. I don’t understand anything that is being taught.
I spent the whole semester break contemplating suicide. Sometimes I wish I was a girl so that I could easily become a freelance escort and earn quick money. I feel really lost.
But hey, CAP is just a number on a paper.
Source: NUSwhisper