Selling myself and I’m not sure if I’m doing the right thing
Ermm, so i am a 28 yr old female (straight) and becos i was molested by male family members when i was 8, i have depression and ptsd, which i have been getting treatment for the past decade.
But ever since puberty, i settle my urges by myself frequently since i still need relief. I have never had a bf, cos i’m not model thin like other woman my age. So recently, I started feeling aroused like hell all the time and initially it made me feel more dirty. But in a spur of a moment, i decided to post an ad online to let guys pet me (no s3x) for a fee. And doing it made me excited.
So I haven’t really done it yet, but my first customer(?) is tmr!! I feel disgusted, fearful and excited at the same time and I don’t know if I should attend the appt.
I’m not gonna lie, I am selling myself.
I am just scared that i will regret it after, and disappoint my therapists. I also come from a strict traditional family and doing this would shred them if they knew it. But the cash is there, my needs are there. But all the psych literature tells me its wrong.
But there are also ppl saying its not wrong cos its my body, my decision.
Anyone out there who can advise? What should I do?
Here are what netizens think:.
- You were a victim before, dun make yourself more of a victim now. What happened in the past is definitely not your fault, so dun make it yours now by going ahead with this decision.
- I’ll say don’t do it girl. Coz I read an interview of a hostess before and she said she was kinda cajoled into doing it initially..
- Are you really prepared for all the things that could go wrong? You are potentially putting yourself in a dangerous situation