I’m an introverted girl, I had one boyfriend who cheated on me 8 months ago and since then found it incredibly difficult to socialize. Not that many people made an effort.
I’m simple, I dont have social media, I have a few friends but they don’t really speak to me much. I’m average-looking. Pretty insecure since my breakup.
I’m still in school and on weekends work part-time to make ends meet.
I dont know, I felt really lonely, so I knew of a guy who works with me who told me his friend is working as a male escort. I found him on Facebook and he told me how much he charged.
Also asked me a bunch of questions about if I have STDs. I never planned on sleeping with him I just didn’t want him to find me weird.
Anyway we met at a hotel, I told him I didn’t want to sleep with him, I just wanted to be held and given words of affirmation and care. He agreed and I paid him.
I gave him flashcards. They all said things like I’m proud of you, I care for you, you’re doing so well, you’re strong, did you eat, are you okay, I know you can do it, etc etc.
And he just held me until our hours were up and then I bolted and I feel so ashamed and had to tell someone. But I don’t have anyone to talk to.