The majority of us would have had a crush on someone during our teenage years. That someone could be a random person you caught a glimpse of during lectures, someone you argued with on a daily basis, or even someone who just magically appeared in your line of sight one fine day.
As a really really fugly and silly girl back in JC, I had no choice but to hide my feelings for my crush. Just walk straight, don’t smile, act nonchalant! There was no chance he would have gone out with me anyway. After all, he was from the school volleyball team, smart and outgoing personality, and a million-watt smile. Even that one-second glimpse I caught of him and his red bag in school made my day 100x better. I recall I would see him pass by while I chill with my girlfriends near the canteen before our afternoon PE lessons.
He was the only thing that helped the unfit me to survive those torturous PE lessons. This happened on and on and on until the last day of school before I went on a one-month school break for A-Levels… close to 8 years ago. Oh silly me. To my crush, I have not seen you since the last time I saw you at the shopping mall while I was returning home from an A level exam. Sometimes I wondered if my life would have been different had I approached you with a little courage, especially on days I think about all the “could have been”.
But I know deep down that you deserve someone far better – far more beautiful, smart, and kind. I suppose you would have met her by now. I don’t know if you’ll see this, or if you saw and wondered if this was referring to you. Maybe you don’t remember a thing anymore.
But deep down in my heart, I wish you happiness wherever you are and whoever you are with. While my fond memories of you have been stuck frozen since 8 years ago, I know they are still sweet whenever I recall my memories in JC… And the ones with you in it. :’)