My boyfriend and I have been together for the past three years, sleeping together actively for two and a half years. I have always been an A cup size, A cup on a good day, and it has never been an issue before.
I often go on his phone and look through his old Instagram stories at videos of us together when I’m feeling sentimental/romantic. To go there, you have to click a sort down bar on your profile. Right underneath the “Your Archives” button is a “Your Activities” button. That tab apparently saves all the links you click while in the app. His links were full of busty women websites. I’m not an idiot, I know how guys are and I expected him to be curious with this kind of stuff.
What hurts me is that those women look NOTHING like me. Not the chest size, not the butt size, not even the same skin colour. I went to sleep feeling like a piece of …. on a public toilet seat.
The next day, he could see something was on my mind so I told him about it. He laughed it off at first thinking I was joking until he saw how serious I was being. He didn’t apologize, he didn’t say anything really except that he didn’t know Instagram saves stuff like that. I tried to bring it up multiple times that day with no success so my self-esteem continued to fall the longer we didn’t talk. I felt the urge to end it for the first time in years (I didn’t) but you could see how bad this news hit me.
The next day, yesterday, he finally put in the effort to speak with me about it. He told me it was an addiction, that he went on once or twice a week to specifically view that category WHILE I was in the shower. Before all this, I always invited him into the shower with me. He really couldn’t be bothered to join me so I could take care of his needs and instead wanted to do it by himself to a picture on a screen.
What should I do?