I’m 31 this year. I was 15, he was 16 back then. I was in Express first class, he was in Normal A. We knew each other through some schoolmates. I was into singing and dancing, he was into sports and cycling, he was an outdoor person). He woo me for a while and I started dating him. Though academically he’s not very good with his studies, he’s a very nice partner. He treats me well, and he’s understanding. He showered me with love and care, accompany & send me back home on
CCA days so that we can spend some time together, Even though it was just the journey back to home from school, I felt that it was sincere. Back in the day, though he was only 16, but he had a much matured thinking than peers of his age group. He took up part time job at fast food restaurant on weekends to earn some extra allowance and to learn some skills.
When we dated, my friends and classmate would question me. Hey, why did you date him? Don’t you think that you and him belong to different status in life? That was because when he was courting me, there was actually another guy from Express stream of his level was also courting me. But end up I chose the latter. And because of these negative questioning from my surrounding, I started to feel that he wasn’t right for me.
We were in the relationship for not very long before it ended. But during the times when we were together, I really enjoyed my time with him everytime we went out on simple dates. I still vividly remember the very first time i slept in his arms was in a school camp.
Yes! Indeed it was during a school camp. This was one of the sweetest memories We had together.
Ok, fast forward to today. 16 years since we dated. He’s happily married with 2 lovely kids, and for myself, I’ve been through a few failed relationships and I’m currently attached. But whenever I scroll on Facebook and happen to see him on the newsfeed, I can’t help it but I do fondly misses him. I know ethically is not right, he’s married and I’m attached, but I just can’t control the emotions at the back of my mind of missing him.
2 months ago, my family and I were out on a family outing to sea Aquarium. I happen to saw him and his family at the Aquarium too. but I did not approach him to show my presence. I just observed him from afar, and dreaming that why the one with him wasn’t me instead.
It has been 16 years, but I have yet to move on from him, even though I’ve been through a few relationships. One day I hope I’ll have the courage to delete him away from my life, and never to think of him ever again.
I do actually wish that if fate permits, I would wish that he could be my boyfriend for 3 days, just for 3 days. And I hope that I can capture as many happy memories with him as possible within this 3 days.