The other night I slept in a really weird position and my neck was hurting all day yesterday. When I got to my boyfriends house I was telling him about how bad my neck pain was (and surprisingly it was getting worse). For reference we’ve been together about 10/11 months.
I’m not the kind of person to take medication generally unless it’s like an antibiotic – I try to tough things out. So my boyfriend suggested I take a panadol.
I was surprised I didn’t even consider that an option, considering just how bad my neck hurt. So I agreed and he offered to go get me something. When he comes back to the room he has two little pills and he goes “these are stronger but they’ll really help”. I asked him “what are they” several times & he told me to stop worrying/just relax/theyll help your neck/they’re stronger than panadol.
So I trusted him. A few mins go by and I decide to ask him again – what was it that he gave me. And he goes anarex. When I asked him why didn’t he tell me, he said it’s because he had an ex who had a toothache one day and she got mad at him for when he gave her panadol. I was scared to be compared to the ex (he used to do that a lot early in our relationship and I have self esteem issues as is) and I was scared to begin an argument. Or even be labeled something negative for having a potentially irrational fear.
Inside, I felt scared, nervous, betrayed, and hurt. Had I known what it was I would’ve said no. I am so upset with myself for trying to be amicable. I am so upset with him for not giving me a choice to say no.
Anyways a few hours go by and I start to feel it kick in. I had a massive headache. It’s the next morning now and my head still hurts just not as bad. I threw up this morning which helped the headache. Last night, he tried to tell me that it’s not the pill that’s giving me the headache.
But I am certain it is. my head just feels all around heavy. I barely slept because it was so bad. And my bf goes “it could’ve been the pill was expired but I doubt it because it’s a painkiller he says.” I feel like he said that to save face? I’m not sure. He was trying to tell me my headache is from something else but I just know it’s not!
I am at such a loss right now. I want to break up with him over this but I’m worried that it’s not over valid grounds because he was trying to help me.