Dear all, please help as I am in a dilemma. 2 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant after my period didn’t come and I took a few pregnancy tests which all came back positive. I haven’t disclosed this to anyone yet.
I am currently working full time and studying part time for my masters degree at NUS. I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years. Since last year he has been hinting at starting a family as he is in his 30s already. I told him I still wanted to further my studies and wasn’t very interested in having children. He has always been against me taking up an additional degree saying it’s a drag and useless. I didnt really care since I’m paying with my own savings.
The thing is, whenever we have sex it’s always with protection. But over this weekend when my boyfriend was out, I had some suspicions and found that his stash of condoms had a few tiny holes and also a sewing needle under the box. Right now I’m feeling so lost, I can’t concentrate at work or school. I’m so angry that he deliberately got me pregnant but at the same time what can I do if I confront him right? I’m already pregnant!
I’m barely halfway through this degree, and now I’m just thinking if I will ever be able to graduate. All the effort, the tens of thousands of dollars forked out all gone down the drain. At 25 I’m not ready to handle the responsibilities of having a child but at the same time, I don’t think I could go down the abortion route…
I would just feel too guilty given that I’m no longer a child and am financially able to.
I’ve never wanted to be a mother, never considered having kids, but now that I’m actually pregnant I just feel so guilty, lost and conflicted. Anyone has similar experiences? Especially from the ladies