My heart dropped into the pit of my stomach the second I realized what had just happened.
I could feel my face heating up in shame and embarrassment as I realized my boyfriend had secretly removed the rubber while we were at it.
I was in complete shock, unable to comprehend how someone I loved and trusted could do something so selfish and inconsiderate.
The whole situation felt like a blur.
One moment we were making love and it felt so intimate and special, and the next he had pulled out and finished inside me. I screamed in terror as the realization of what had just happened started to sink in. I was in complete disbelief and felt betrayed by someone I thought I could trust.
The aftermath of the experience was even worse. I was filled with fear and anxiety, wondering if I had been exposed to any STDs or unwanted pregnancies. My boyfriend tried to comfort me but I just couldn’t hear anything he said.
I felt violated and like I had been taken advantage of.
We had been together for over a year and he had never once done something like this before. But now, all that trust was gone. It felt like he had taken advantage of me and my vulnerability in that moment.
I felt so embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I wished I had said something to stop him or had been more aware of what he was doing, but it all happened so quickly and I was in a state of shock. I couldn’t believe this had happened to me.
I eventually managed to calm down and talk to him about it. He apologized and explained that he’d gotten carried away in the moment and hadn’t meant to do it. He told me he would never do something like that again and that he was sorry for hurting me.
Although I accepted his apology, I was still incredibly hurt and angry. I felt like he had taken away my autonomy and disregarded my wishes. I felt like I had been invaded and violated in a way I could never have imagined.