Hello! me and my boyfriend were having an amazing day we spent the day together and then went on a movie date later in the night where we got a little drunk.
The day before we had been disagreeing and discussed that our relationship wasn’t working out, but that we wanted to keep trying.
Fast forward the next night were at the movies getting a little drunk and then head home to have some wild and rough intimacy.
We start f-ing and I’m super dehydrated since we hadn’t drank water the entire 3 hour movie. I asked to get water and he gave me a rude response implying he didn’t want me to get up.
So I powered through and we continued. He did a few things I disliked, spat in my face twice, pulled my hair so hard while in reverse cowgirl I fell backwards twice.
Then he started saying I was a bad girl that needed to be punished which I don’t mind (I’ve told him I want to be his little ho before just so you guys get a gist of what’s normal).
Then he flipped me over and told me bad girls like me get used immediately I told him to get off of me. Looking back I wish I didn’t since he was obviously drunk and is a mean drunk sometimes.
I really just don’t like the word “used” especially if it’s coming from my boyfriend of 2 years.
I asked him what I did that was so bad and he screamed at me telling me it’s just dirty talk since he was trying to turn himself on and I’m being stupid (oh and his hand can do a better job).
I don’t even remember what I said but I expressed I didn’t appreciate being told I was being used (this is my boyfriend of 2 years I want to feel loved in bed even if it’s rough not like a ho he found off the street).
He eventually freaked out and told me to leave his house so I got a taxi and left. He pleasured himself while I waited for my ride and then when I got in the car, he called me asking me why I left saying if I loved him I wouldn’t have left, I would have waited upstairs.
I feel bad but not sure what to do I really do love him but him being so drunk and aggressive was scaring me it seems like that’s how he thinks things should be in bed.