Anyway I got PEP, paid $1000+ in grand total, started the medications. The side effects are those you normally see in AIDS patients, which don’t help, you see, as I already panicked AF at that point. At the end I stopped the medications prematurely, in its 2nd week cause of the severe side effects. As PEP is supposed to be taken for entire month, my $1000 went to the drain, the PEP didn’t work.

What’s left for me? Wait. Because of this 3-month window period of HIV. It was just a living nightmare at this point. Everyday all I can think of was the possibility of getting HIV. Googled the statistics of getting HIV after one fk. Not too high, but possible. I simply can’t afford ‘possible’, beaten myself up countlessly why forgo the condom? Cause I was too stupid to use my brain, the one in the head.
I tried to continue study as normal during the term, and slowly I got distracted but it stings every time I think of it.

So today, I needed the closure, whether to live or to die. I went to do the testing, way after the window period, I kept staring at the kit, was so scared about the results. It was one line. The nurse threw the kit away and tell me I’m fine. I pretended to be calm and went home. But all I can say in this point, I got lucky, and I hope this experience can encourage my fellow mates to practice safe sx.
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