Newlyweds haven’t slept together (f24) (f27)
This might be pretty crazy story. But my husband and I got married not too long ago. We are both from conservative families so we both waited until marriage.
The honeymoon was awkward… he wouldn’t really initiate at all. We like barely tried once it didn’t really work and never again after that.
To this day we still never did anything. I started to feel like he didn’t love me, like im not pretty enough. I would cry at night.
I started feeling just awkward if that makes sense. And it’s not only because we didn’t sleep together but I just feel like he doesn’t care for me. I opened up to him about this twice and he says “I’m not good enough for you” “you deserve better” I try to comfort him and think that I’m being too hard on him.
I’m very sad most of the time now. When he asks why do I look so sad I just say “idk” I told him before about the lack of intimacy but he said that he just doesn’t know what he’s doing and I kind of gave up asking.
Now, I just tell him that I feel like I’m not pretty enough but he just always tells me that he loves me so much, I’m his world, I’m the prettiest girl and all those things.
I’m just so confused because he says all these things but I don’t feel it you know. I don’t feel loved. I’ve asked him if he was gay or if he’s watching AV or something to satisfy himself and he said no to both and even was disappointed that I asked.
We’ve been married for almost half a year now and the most we do is kiss. We don’t even change in front of each other. This is just so sad to me because I never thought marriage would be like this. I feel awkward in front of my husband and I don’t know what to do.
He’s very gentle, kind and tells me that he loves me he cuddles me alll the time but that’s it. Idk what to do and I feel like I’m not enough. Has anyone ever been thru this?
Edit: we have showered together once on the honeymoon. Nothing ever escalates to the next step. I’m so embarrassed to talk to anyone about it, so I pretend everything is ok!!!