I (F25) graduated from a prestigious university. During my second year in university, my dad died from stomach cancer. It was tough for my family.
All of the time, I wanted him to die because we suffered from his hands and when he did, I just felt lost. I struggled with my studies, failed some of my courses, and was delayed for one year until I graduated last year.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I don’t have the will to start looking for a job because I know I can’t handle the mental torment of being in one.
But I knew I needed a livelihood, so when I was still a student, I invested my allowances on stocks. Up to this point, I am receiving quarterly dividends.
I already have an immense amount of savings that helped me buy my condominium and let me live a life that is above-average. It also gave me the capacity to send my mom’s allowance every month.
This kind of life also helped me pursue my dream of being a novel writer.
My mom, on the other hand, disagrees with my way of living. She told me to look for a real job. She asked me why I studied for my bachelor’s if I won’t use it.
I told her about my stock dividends, and she said that I can’t rely on them all the time.
I showed her my savings, my emergency funds, my retirement savings, and my health insurance. She was shocked at first but still insists that I look for a stable job.
I know my mother means well, but I know she’s embarrassed by me not having a title job, unlike my older siblings who are an accountant and a chemist. When there are gatherings, she also loves to talk about my older sisters’ success in their work fields. I know I’m embarrassing her because the one who she hoped to be the most successful doesn’t have a decent job. I also feel bad.