Last Sat morning my grandmother found my grandfather lying on bed and having difficulty breathing, so he was quickly sent to hospital and now he is still in ICU.
My grandfather is 89 years old, and he is ready and has prepared for his last moment. He always say if he lose consciousness, there is no need to save him. He also expressed his willingness to donate his body after he pass away.
But this time his daughters (my mom and aunties) still decided to save him even though when doctor say it will be suffering for him to be intubated.
Indeed my grandfather felt very angry when he wake up for a moment and found himself in ICU yesterday. The doctors had to give him medicine to force him to sleep because he didn’t want to cooperate with treatment in ICU.
I don’t know how to express my sadness. I think no one is wrong but still feel sad for everyone. I wish my grandfather can have a peaceful last moment since that is what he always want.
But I also understand my mom and aunties won’t just simply let him die without effort to save him. As a result he had to suffer a lot.
If his life is saved, he may suffer again next time if same thing happen. He doesn’t want it, but he doesn’t have any control. Now everyone except he himself and me are so happy that he may survive this time…. what a sad reality.