I met my ex-boyfriend when we were both in Poly.
He was from the school’s student committee and was quite high profile amongst the student body.
I was in love with him and I felt like I had known him my entire life.
We connected on every level and it was like nothing I had ever experienced before.
But then I started to realize that he was a bit of a social butterfly. Everywhere we went, he seemed to know someone.
He would be talking to people, introducing me to them, and I was feeling like I was just a tag along in his life.
I mean, I knew he was popular but I just thought it like people know of his existence but he does not really know them on a personal level.
It made me feel so insecure and I started to question our relationship because I was constantly worried about him being unfaithful or meeting someone else.
He had a lot of female friends and I was jealous of all of the attention he was getting from them. I felt like they overpowered me and he was not giving me enough attention as he gave others.
I got to the point where I couldn’t stand being around him when he was talking to other people. I was always wondering if he was flirting with someone else or if he was talking about me behind my back.
I was so insecure and I couldn’t take it anymore.
Due to the constant insecurities I faced, I decided to leave him and tried to move on and find someone else, but I just couldn’t.
Everyone else I met kinda knew him and it seems like he will never get out of my life.
I realised I was still in love with him and I couldn’t help but feel like I was missing something when I was with someone else.
I took a break from social media and from people whom were close to us but I eventually realised that no matter how far away I got, I would never be able to really get away from him or remove him from my life.