I’ve been dating this sweet guy for a few months and today while we were getting intimate he was looking into my eyes and I just got so emotional and overwhelmed and started crying and he was all like “are you okay? Did you remember something bad?”
And I tried to explain that everything is fine, and told him that I’m just not used to being treated so gently and carefully, and how new it is to me to have a physical relationship while also forming an emotional bond with someone.
My past is kinda complicated, and while I won’t go into detail, I will say it has affected me and I’ve been healing and working on myself for the last year.
nd when I met this guy I told him I’m not ready for a serious relationship because I still don’t feel whole as a person, but one thing led to another and now I have this amazing, supportive and understanding partner.
My approach towards love and emotions has always been cynical due to my upbringing and other reasons, and it’s difficult as fuck to truly open up to someone, and it’s scary but freeing.
So right now I’m in his bathroom while he waits for me in bed, in two days we’re going to celebrate my birthday and I think I’m starting to really love him.
I just wanted to let this off my chest.