So I am not used to wearing makeup, despite being a sx worker. I always worked with no makeup. But in 2015 I got a sugar daddy and haven’t really had to hustle since then.
I really hate makeup for sensory reasons (I am on the spectrum) and gender dysphoria. Plus I just always hated being told I had to paint over my face to look acceptable.
But now 7 years have passed and getting abandoned and I have to get back into the game. I got help from my very femme friend to buy everything I need and learn how to use it.
Apparently, my eyes are pretty sensitive. They tear up and get puffy really quickly if I get makeup in my eyes. And if I cry on a Tuesday, my eyes will still be sensitive on Wednesday and my face still puffy. Wiping my eyes, even with a soft hanky, irritates them.
Unfortunately I am in a bad place right now. I am struggling with anxiety, bipolar mixed episodes, and I fell in love with a fk boy. I know right? So I am crying every day.
I can’t get my eyes calmed down enough to get a full face of makeup on to take my new photos for my sx work! And how am I going to deal with this while hustling?
What do people even do? None of the people in my life really wear makeup except my one femme friend and I guess she doesn’t have to when she doesn’t want. Like how do you depuff? How do you not cry and ruin your makeup? Do girls just not cry or what?
I know I’m not in a good place, I don’t have certificates and trying to change a job is not as easy as you think, I went for several interviews and no one wants me as I do not have a good history of jobs at my age.