I let my boyfriend slap me in the face when we get intimate, even though it’s triggering.
I had to tell someone. I had to write this one down or something. It feels messed up for me to enjoy it because it’s literally so so degrading and just reminds me of all the times in life that my parents physically hit me as a child.
It’s so messed up why do I like it??? I love calling him daddy and letting him slap me in the face.
The first time he did it I almost cried because it was so triggering but something came over me later on down the road in our relationship and now I just want him to do it all the time.
This is so weird imma just leave this one here. Feel free to roast.
I also feel like I need to put this out there, but my boyfriend is not in any way shape or form mistreating me. I have given him permission to do this and he also likes being slapped as well lol.
I worked through a lot of my daddy issues but feel okay with calling my bf daddy because I don’t really make that connection I just think it’s hot af and he likes it so why not?
If anything the physical trauma I experienced all came from mom. She would shame me for the clothes I wore and would always tell me to “cover myself” because there are grown men around.
She called me names many many times and I’m sure there are plenty of women who can relate to this kind of treatment from their mother. She would get physical with me ALL THE TIME.
Netizens’ comments
- I was kind of that same way, but I was getting too mentally confused by it so during intimacy I’d tell him where to slap me and that gave me the control of it and the pleasure of it but without it being my face. Something about it not being the specific place that triggers (the face) made it feel better.
- It’s a trauma response like someone in the comments said. As a child, I was repeatedly whipped whenever I stepped out of line. Slapped, whipped, etc. It’s traumatic and I feel so weird because I really like when my boyfriend slaps and grabs me. I don’t like pain or anything but feeling like he’s in control is kinda nice sometimes.
- A lot of people develop kinks as a result of trauma. It’s a way for our brain to process what happened to us and help us experience similar things while having control, since it’s consensual.