I’ve been struggling with mental health for a while now. I haven’t been the best boyfriend to her and I know that. In our year together we had a miscarriage and an abortion.
We were very safe, and we found out the reason she ended up getting pregnant is that her method of birth control wasn’t effective. When we figured this out she changed methods. I was a mess after the miscarriage as was she.
I wasn’t there for her. We were broken up and I am very lucky she took me back after. I was really mean to her, and said some unforgivable things like accusing her of impregnating herself with a jar of my man juice.
I was a douche, to say the least. We got back together too fast. I felt really guilty and I ended up not treating her the way she deserved. She ended up getting pregnant and this time it was healthy. This completely shattered me.
I’m not ready to be a parent, and I’m in no mental state for that. I told her that if she ended up having it I would hurt myself or worse. She seemed really distant and we argued a few times. She didn’t let me go with her to the appointment because I upset her two days before. I accused her of faking the pregnancy. My mental state got even worse and for my sake, I couldn’t have her in my life anymore.
I broke up with her and told her to sort out her pain. I know it’s harsh but it’s what I needed. Now she won’t leave me alone, and I’m considering a restraining order against her. She’s said some really hurtful things regarding my manhood and I don’t need to take her abuse quite frankly.