A girl shared how she find herself “accidentally” looking at the cleavages of women a lot and is scared that they will notice.
Here is the story:
I accidentally look at women’s cleavage a lot
I’m a girl and I have a long standing almost pathological level fear of ever being creepy due to growing up with a lot of internalized homophobia (I am a lesbian) and also being groomed by a male “friend” in JC.
I’m really not particularly interested in cleavage (I’m more attracted to someone’s style and vibe than body parts) but I get intrusive thoughts when I’m talking to a woman (even if they’re old or whatever) wearing a really low cut top that “I’m gonna look and everyone will know I’m gay and be scared of me” and often I end up looking because of that.
Never more than a glance – I don’t stare and I always immediately look to the eyes but for the rest of the conversation I become very anxious that the woman noticed this split second and thinks I am a predator or something.
This has gotten better with age and working on my anxiety disorder but I have never disclosed this specific issue of mine to anyone IRL, not even my girlfriend.
Editor’s note: LOL same.