I watch my momma eat alone and it broke my heart
I dont really get emotional. But today my mommy had some errands to run and was asking if any of my siblings wanted to go with her. They all said no, and I felt bad leaving my momma to do them herself, so I went with her. It was a lot. I helped her with things she did daily by herself. At first I was angry because I didn’t really want to go, I only went because I felt bad, but I told myself to suck it up and eventually I was cool with tagging along.
After about an hour or so we were done. I was tired, she was tired and we went home. Yet even when we got home she had a bit of work to do. After she finished that, she warmed herself up some left overs that were in the fridge.
there’s barely food in the house..
and I knew it probably wasn’t enough for her but she never complained. Not once, not all day, she never complained. I complained about there being nothing to eat, which there was. Just things that I didn’t want to eat. I later ending up settling for cereal.
I walked past her room to see her eating all alone and my heart shattered. I don’t know why, but it hurt to see her like that. I walked to my room holding back tears.
Growing up, my mother and I never had the best relationship. I used to give her hell when I was younger. I was a very emotionally driven teenager. I’m 17 now. I’ve learned to communicate more with my mother and for the past year we’ve been great. My mom and my dad aren’t together so it’s just her raising all of my siblings.
I am so ungrateful. I was angry for dragging myself to help my own mother, and made noise about food that I didn’t want.
Meanwhile she’s eating food that no one wants, and ran errands and not one single complaint.
She deserves so much more 😭💔