When I initially met the man of my dreams, I knew I had found someone special. He was kind, funny, and had a warm, inviting personality.
He was everything I had been looking for in a partner.
Started to reconsider my feelings when I got intimate with him
However, as our relationship progressed, I began to notice a few things about him that gave me pause; namely, his small ‘package’ size.
At first, it didn’t bother me too much. I was more focused on our connection and the fact that I felt so comfortable around him. But, as time passed and we became more intimate, I started to feel like something was missing.
I knew that I was attracted to him, but I couldn’t deny that his ‘package’ size was a bit of a turn-off for me. I had been with guys who had larger ‘package’ before, and I knew that size mattered to me.
I felt like I was missing out on something by being with him.
Still, I couldn’t help but feel guilty for feeling this way. I wasn’t shallow, and I tried not to make any judgments based on physical appearance. I loved him for who he was, and his ‘package’ size shouldn’t have been a deciding factor in my feelings for him.
I tried to push my negative thoughts to the back of my mind and focus on the things I did love about him. We had fun together, we connected on a deep level, and I felt like he was the one.
But, in the back of my mind, I couldn’t shake the feeling that his small size would be a problem.
I didn’t want to be shallow, but I also didn’t want to settle for something that wasn’t going to give me the pleasure I desired.
I knew that I deserved to have my needs met, and I wanted to be able to go into this relationship without feeling like I was missing out.
In the end, I chose my pleasure over my feelings
I sat down and had a long talk with myself. I asked myself if I was willing to give up the pleasure I desired to be with someone I truly loved.
After a few days of contemplation, I came to the conclusion that I wanted love but if I were to be together with this guy, it will be a one ‘package’ situation for me and I was quite unwilling to accept him because of this.
I ended up breaking things off with him and he was crestfallen as he thought that everything was going well.
He asked me for the reason but all I could say was we are not very compatible as I did not want to hurt his feelings by telling him about his small ‘package’ size.
It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but I knew it was the right decision.
I still care about him and think highly of him, but I know that I deserve to have my needs met as well.