I am currently in long term relationship with my boyfriend for almost 6 years, our anniversary is coming up soon too.
He is planning to bring me to see rings soon. And we managed to get a bto already.
But throughout all these years I have the nagging feeling that I don’t love him in the romantic way. He is my best friend and it kind of all started because I wasn’t able to say no and hurt him.
I care about him and he is important to me but throughout all these years there were times I always wondered how it would be if I was with someone else and been attracted to other people.
I read that this is normal even if you are in relationship and as long as I remain committed and not act on this feelings, it is okay, feelings will pass in the end.
But it keeps coming back, these thoughts and feelings. It has been so long and I’m so used to spending time with him, doing the things I do for him.
I feel so bad now if I tell him how I feel, I wasted 6 years of his time. And I do love him but maybe just not in romantically.
And with the bto everything is just so complicated. I really don’t know what to do. Whatever I choose just doesn’t feel right.
Whenever I think of this I just tell myself that these thoughts will go away eventually but now it’s been 6 years and it’s still there. What should I do?