Becoming attractive destroyed my faith in humanity
Around 5 years ago, after being 18 kg overweight from age 13 until my 20s, I lost all that weight and had a major glow up.
I guess I was not totally homely to begin with, but after losing the weight, I went from being cute to beautiful, as per the people in my life.
Following this change in my appearance, I am more cynical than ever. The change in the way people treated me was insane!
Strangers started telling me to cut in front of them in lines, people started holding doors open for me, I get free desserts and appetizers in restaurants, I am offered free stuff and discounts from department store employees.
Even the people closest to me were all of a sudden more patient with me, the behaviors that were once irritating to friends are now endearing.
I would get it if this change was just in men that were attracted to me, but it is in everyone around me, including women and children.
Pretty privilege is absolutely real and the disturbing reality is that after I became thinner and more conventionally attractive, I seemingly became more deserving of empathy and kindness.
This realization has shaken my view of the world and I have never felt so demoralized in my life.