I send nudes because feeling wanted and appreciated makes me feel good.
I (18F) don’t go outside often, so that means I never go on dates or meet new people. The only way for me to meet new people is online. This year I started sending photos of me without any clothes on to people who I enjoy talking to online.
They’re all from Japan and I don’t live there, so I don’t worry about how it’ll affect me in school or workplace…
So, when sending them to people… I’d usually make light of the situation, joke around and tease them. I’d delay sending them by playing stupid games with them. Knowing how they want me, and making them wait is actually really fun.
Thing is, I have extremely low libido and am rarely horny with them. But…
I love the attention. As I’ve mentioned, I don’t go outside a lot. Back when I was in school I used to have quite a bit of attention, but then I dropped out and lost contact with most of my friends. So to have someone look at me again feels good.
I also love the compliments. I used to be a fat kid. My weight is currently 47kg at 152cm and I know it’s completely normal, but the mindset to lose weight just sticks, ya know. To hear people calling me sexy or cute makes me feel appreciated.
I don’t know if I feel guilty. I know my mom would be horrified by what I’ve been doing lately. But it’s just really fun and honestly kind of addicting. I don’t think I’ll stop anytime soon.
Anyway, that’s it. Thanks for reading.