Part 1 is here:
To further elaborate, we are both single.
The complication lies in the nature of our work. Let’s put it this way, we are in an industry where it is unlikely possible to “switch career”. Our jobs have a certain level of exposure.
One wrong move and it can be disastrous. This is why I am struggling. I don’t want to look back and regret but at the same time, making an advance might cause a bigger regret.
It is not as simple as making that first move and see where it takes us because the uncertainty that comes after will be our greatest fear to move forward. Like I mentioned in my earlier post, no matter what the outcome is, most likely one of us still have to sacrifice our career.
If we are together, there will be a conflict of interest. If confession failed, the bond will never be the same again. We cherish this connection so much that we will not do anything funny to destroy it.
I don’t think anyone here can truly feel my struggle. And I am not expecting a perfect answer. I just want to know your thoughts in general. Should I just continue loving him in a different capacity?
And if YOU are reading this, I just want to tell you that I genuinely care and want the best for you. It’s unfortunate that we are caught in this limbo. Then again, I think of the present moment and feel blessed that this job allows us to connect deeply, emotionally though in a different context but still, in that moment. ily