I am a someone (23F) who always have large pores with pimples and blackhead that never seem to go away. Tried many products here and there and always got disheartened when they never work. Been to dermatology clinics to seek for decent facial products yet stopped halfway many times because they were too costly (over hundred of dollars).
Having such skin condition affected my self-esteem a lot. Most of my friends have natural good skin which don’t require much maintenance. I was once labelled as having “strawberry nose” which I feel ashamed of. Sometimes I feel relieved to wear masks these days so that I can “hide” my face when talking to people. Still, I feel ashamed and embarrassed to talk to people because of my skin.
In 2020, I was introduced to a brand new world of makeup. Things like this helped me to conceal my “bad” skin. When I look into the mirror with my makeup on, I feel like a whole new person. I started to gain more confidence and become more comfortable talking to people. I also had my first boyfriend that year which is something I have never thought of.
Every time when I meet my boyfriend, I would put on makeup which makes my skin look smoother and brighter. As time goes by, I start to feel the adverse effect of putting on makeup on my skin (I have naturally oily skin). Beneath my skin, I had more breakouts than usual which makes me shitty when I take off my makeup.
I am lucky to have known a dermatologist who is introduced to me by my cousin. I had been to a few facial sessions conducted by that dermatologist and from the way she does her work to her attitude, I see some light in getting my face treated for good. Also, as I started working, I am okay spending more on facial treatments and products.
According to the dermatologist, for my skin type, it is best to stop wearing makeup and let my face “rest”.
This is toughest part for me because I have difficulties showing my bare face to the people around me, especially my boyfriend. But at the same time, I really want to get my face treated for real. I mean I have spent all my life having a pimpled face, and how nice it would be like to seek proper treatment especially I earn my own money now right.
I cannot imagine how he is going to react when he sees my bare face since he and his family all have good skin. Should I go the extent of breaking up with him since I don’t want to destroy that “fair-skin” girl image?