A netizen recounted how 2021 was a bad year for her because her grandmother passed away and she couldn’t see her as the borders were closed.
She also recounted her negative family experiences as well as not wanting to return to Singapore.
Here is the story:
“2021 definitely was not a good year for me.
January 2021 – I lost my grandma during the pandemic and was stuck overseas as borders were still shut.
I had a very close relationship with my grandma so not being able to be by her side when she passed on was heartbreaking to say absolute least.
Up till now, I’m still having a hard time letting her go and I still think of her every single day.
February 2021 – My mum decided to file for divorce with my dad. Being the eldest of 5 kids, I was constantly caught in their turmoil of arguments (through WhatsApp) and it eventually had an impact on me as I saw myself getting more temperamental and frustrated easily.
Every single day, I would receive WhatsApp texts from both my Mum and Dad separately, which entailed screenshots of their private conversations which held their arguments.
This happened when I am still overseas. Dad was still trying his very best to make amendments in salvaging their marriage but my mum was just having none of it.
May 2021 – Had a heated conversation with my 2 closest friends in Singapore. They’ve been urging me to return home as I have not seen them in 2 years.
However I refused to because I don’t like it in Singapore and I don’t foresee myself working in SG long-term as I personally find the working culture to be too toxic (just my own view).
They then went on to say I am not cherishing what I have and I should not even call myself a Singaporean.
I asked them to give me 3 legit reasons why I should return to Singapore for good and all they could say was “So we can meet up more often.”
To me, that reason should not even be considered a “reason to return home”.
I then told them the reason why I don’t want to return to Singapore is – There are a lot of small minded people, the work culture is toxic and people can never be happy for one another.
I am very happy with my current work situation overseas and if they are my true friends, they should be happy for me as well.
Over the months I started to drift apart from them and we stopped talking ever since.
Right now, I don’t know what I am living for. The people that were once important to me aren’t in my life anymore, the happy family I once had is falling apart. Everyday I just question, how much longer do I have to do this?”
Editor’s note: Hang in there…