No guy wants to date me because of my personality. I don’t know how to fix my selfish, narcissistic behavior.
I’ve been asked out countless of times in person, over text, and 90% of the time I say no. The 10% of time I agree to go out, the relationship never “goes anywhere” and just crumbles overtime until we never talk to each other.
I’ve always thought it was weird, but my parents/friends always assured me that it was probably for a good reason, and I’ll find someone else soon enough, and that always made me feel better.
But I realized that the constant in all these failed relationships is me. I’m the one ruining everything and driving others away because of my personality.
I’ve always been “surface level polite” but I realized deep down I’m self centered and inconsiderate. I don’t put a lot of effort into getting to know the other person, I over-talk about myself, I expect everything to go the way I want it to, etc.
I don’t know why I’m like this. My parents always told me to think in terms of others, I’ve read countless of self help books, and my friends are all better at being considerate than me. But every time I go on a date I can’t help but take over the conversation and make it revolve around me, and I don’t realize until it’s too late.
I’m still young and I know I still have lots of time to figure myself out and settle with someone.
It just pains me that I keep ruining what’s right in front of me, and it’s very awkward because most of the guys that has asked me out are in the same school as me and I have to confront them all the time. All my friends have dated at some point, but I can’t seem to get past the ”talking/first date” stage.