I cheated and I don’t think I’ll forgive myself
ldk if anyone will see this but I think it’ll help if I just text this out. I was in a relationship with one of the most beautiful human beings I’ve ever met, we were together for a year and I made a mistake and sent explicit pictures to somebody, I’ve never seen or met before.
I was honest and I told her and it broke her heart it broke my heart, that I could cause so much pain to somebody, especially her.
Her and I were best friends she felt like home, and now I can’t even talk or see her. It’s her birthday today, and I’ve already given her presents at her door and I have done all I can to try to get her back.
But I’m starting to realize I probably never will. I don’t want sympathy, I can’t imagine what she feels like.
We loved each other so much and It’s my fault I ruined it. It’s hard to forgive myself for that, but I try not to think about her or what I did. But i see her in my dreams and in my mind and I will never forget her.
I’ve grown so much these past couple months and just realizing certain things I need to change. One thing that hasn’t changed though is the love I have for her, she’ll always have a place in my heart and I’m just grateful to have known her to even hold a conversation with her.
She chose me and I chose dishonesty and Betrayed my best friend. Idk if I’ll ever get over her but I hope I can, I hope she can get over me, I hope she’s healing in a healthy way.
It’s been 3 months since we broke up. And I’d be lying if I told you I don’t want to see her, but I mean this like MEAN this I would give ANYTHING to see her again anything…but maybe it’s for the best that I don’t.
This is a warning to anyone that thinks about cheating or doing something like I did, take time for yourself and figure out what you want before you break your partners heart like did.
It’s something that you will never want to experience. for her and for me
Netizen’s comments
- Why did you decide to send those photos to a stranger? Not judging you just curious as to why someone would do that.