Anyone else whose parents treated you badly and brought you countless issues when you were younger, so you don’t feel any sympathy for them now that they’re aging and sick?
I’ve always told mine that they may still be active back then but they’ll regret it when they’re old and dying, and it seems like their time has come.
I feel completely apathetic about their old age ailments and sicknesses because they were crap to me in the past and gave me many trauma and issues that became obstacles to my development and progress.
Badmouthing me to other people whenever they could, trying to put me in IMH or calling police and family services whenever we had disagreements, hitting me and slandering me saying I’m the one who use violence on them when I have mild OCD and don’t even like to touch other people and they’re the ones who always pushed me whenever they couldn’t win me in verbal disagreements.
I became insecure and paranoid, already had social anxiety when I was young because I used to be an overweight kid before I became anorexic and recovered to normal weight, to the point where I’d put security cameras around my house just to record down situations when they occur and to collect evidence that I’m not the one who’s violent towards them.
I’ve never had this much issues interacting with anyone else outside of my family. Work, school, everything has been okay and I haven’t had any complaints about my behaviour before.
Classmates used to even say that their parents would love to have me as their kid because I wasn’t disorderly, studied and kept myself healthy without anyone telling me to.
But strangely my own family has always made me the scapegoat for their own stupid actions and decisions.
I’m just watching them live out their remaining days and hoping that they’ll pass away soon so that that awful chapter of my life can finally be finished.
I didn’t have a choice as to where I was born into, but as their influence on me gradually fades away, I’m happier with my own life that I have chosen and built for myself away from them.