Getting bad anxiety and loneliness at work. How do you all cope?
So for context, I’m a 23M, ORDed last yr and job hunted for 4 mths and finally landed myself in a job in Dec 2022.
Honestly, I walked myself into this one. I was desperate for a good-paying job to support my family, and my diploma and lack of work experience couldn’t land me in local unis or proper FT jobs.
Wanted to go to SIM for a data-science degree but didn’t had the money. Then saw this company and decided to just screw it and try it out.
I didn’t think abt it hard enough even when seeing the working hours. I just needed to quickly secure a job and my family can finally be relieved that I’m finally working.
They didn’t even force me to work, I just wanted to help them because my dad is the only sole breadwinner. I can’t keep depending on him.
Now I’ve finished training and started to officially work. I nearly cried when I finished work a couple days ago. When I come to work, I get the crippling sense of dread and anxiety in my chest.
Suddenly being free for the week feels non-existent with the little offs I have. I don’t know why I feel like this. But when I’m at work, all I feel is loneliness, how I miss my mom, miss my friends, and it can get overwhelming.
My work being rly tiring isn’t helping. When I ended work and started to feel better, I told myself I need to look forward to work coming forward and just be happy because if I don’t, I won’t last. Went for work the next day and the horrible feeling came back.
I wanna know how to handle these feelings. I can’t imagine if I have to go through anxiety everyday of my life. I obviously am regretting my decision really bad and will be sure to really think twice when applying for jobs next time.