Coming from money has spoiled me and ruined my drive.
Most people here will laugh at this or dismiss me as an ungrateful privileged brat but coming from money has ruined my ability to get anything done.
I understand that I have it better off than those in poverty but living in wealth with no need to work for anything has been a miserable existence.
My family is what you would consider nouveau riche, with my father being raised in lower middle class and making everything by himself.
But rather than pass his drive and grit he has done nothing but overwhelm me with excess. As a teenager I used to be more introverted and would prefer to stay in and play minecraft rather than go out, this confused him and he pushed me to go out, spend money in clubs and restaurants with his friends kids and enjoy a life of excess.
I guess I understand where he is coming from, never having had any of this I guess he wanted to give me all he never had.
But after years of unlimited credit cards, expensive habits, I find myself at 24 with absolutely no drive.
Why would I work? I have a credit card that I can get anything with, a nice car that takes me anywhere, for god’s sake I even have maids that clean up my room so I don’t have the basic skill of organizing my surroundings.
I am essentially a 24 year old child.
I am sure the reaction I will get here with be overwhelmingly negative as this problem sounds absurd. Most of you will think me spoiled and out of touch with reality. The worst part is you would not be wrong, I absolutely am. But having enough self awareness to realize this, combined with watching all my friends work hard, achieve goals, and make something of themselves, has left me completely empty inside with thoughts of ending it all rather than live on as a spoiled adult living a life that consumes but does not add to the world.