Tomorrow I turn 26. Today, I got fired.
I got fired today from a job I really loved. I’m not the best with money, and with the increase in income (my first salaried job,) I spent recklessly. I have barely enough for food today and my dog’s dry food. I turn 26 tomorrow and this is probably the lowest I’ve ever felt.
I haven’t broken down yet, and it’ll probably happen in a few hours when my girlfriend comes home and I have to tell her what’s happened.
I’m ashamed to call my parents and let them know I’ll be asking for help with bills next month, and I know I’ll have to hear them say that they knew moving for my girlfriend and a new job was a bad idea, and this is not surprising to them.
In the meeting where they fired me, all I could say is that I tried really hard here, and it’s true. I did. I have diagnosed ADHD, and experienced a 3 week lapse of my meds that led me to make poor administration decisions.
I started with them, gained a lot of momentum and felt recognized in my career for the first time, and when I ran out of my medication, I couldn’t handle as much as I could with it. I’m so mad at myself for not being more on top of it, and upset that I can’t get another shot to make it work again.
I turn 26 tomorrow. It feels like I’m supposed to have it together at least a little, and I don’t know when I actually will.