I (18m) have always loved my mom because of what she did for me and my sister, but now I feel just hate and resentment towards her now.
This started in 2021 when she had thrown a small party for a UFC fight that was going on that night. I really didn’t care so most of the night i was on my phone.
I was asked many times to play drinking games with my mother and her friends but I don’t like alcohol and I don’t really want to get drunk around my mom. My mother on the other hand was enjoying herself and her friends were also.
Later in the night by 11pm many people went home, but there were just 3 guests, me, and my mother left. She and her friends were all enjoying their night by taking shots and basically just drinking a lot.
I had work in the morning so i had told them to enjoy their night and please keep the noise down so that I’ll hopefully get some rest.
After an hour of them basically not caring I come out to tell them please to be a little more quiet because I have work early the next day.
I was met with them not really paying attention and basically brushing me off the rest of the conversation.
There was one of her friends, let’s call him Larry. Larry said to me, “Hey just to let you know, it’ll probably be like this the whole night.” He gave a very we don’t care about you type attitude.
I was fed up at this point, they were playing music, drinking, and laughing so loud that i could hear it over the music.
I made a decision to move into my moms bed because it was a little farther away from where they were. To no avail I still couldn’t really fall asleep.
Fast forward to about 4am in the morning and I hear a moaning noise. At first I thought that it was someone watching adult videos, but then I realized that it was my mother.
To clarify my room and her room are basically right next to each other. She was getting intimate in my bed, in my room, where I sleep.
I was absolutely livid. It went on for a while, I honestly played music on my phone so I wouldn’t hear it. After sometime I find out it is Larry whom my mom slept with on my bed.
I wait until he leaves and it’s time for me to go to work, I get up and start packing my things. My mom gets up and I let her have it, I rip into her and let her know that she is disrespectful of my space and how I always respect her and who does this to their son.
It ended with us having a major argument and me moving in with my dad. We talked about it over breakfast on a later date and she apologized, but I don’t think I can ever see her the same as I saw her before.
I know that alcohol makes you do crazy things but I never thought to this degree. I have talked to her a number of times but recently I have blocked her from texting me.
I developed major trust issues with women because I thought they all were going to humiliate me like my mother did, I have major problems with anxiety so I now feel emasculated, my self confidence is non existent, and it still haunts me to this day.
My family is telling me to forgive her but I haven’t told them the full story because my mom doesn’t want them to know. I honestly am at my wit’s end, I still love her but I just never want to be put in a situation like that ever again.